Amatuer Poet

Model Picture Girl

2010-07-19T22:26:00.001+12:00

I bought a frame the other day just perfect for your picture
but noticed straight away that the original model looked much better

Yours seems dull and faint next to the models clear crisp colour
Her face is well balanced in the shot where yours is off center

I think your smile is slightly crooked but there's no fault in hers
Her complection is crystal clear but I can see a pimple on your chin

Why look at your poorly taken, out-of-focus, badly lit picture
When I could have this other girl, there's no competition

...

What is your name model picture girl?
Where can I find your number?
If I called back the store would they know where to find it?
Model picture girl will you be mine?
I went and bought two more frames for your picture
One for my wallet, one for my dresser
Our children will be gorgeous I just know it
Two boys and a girl, Sam, Geoff and Katy
I can't wait to meet them and you
My picture frame girl

Innocence

2010-02-17T08:38:00.001+13:00

When I look in their eyes
I see that it's gone
By no fault of their own
they've been preyed upon

That look or that manner
sees into their past
Shows knowledge of damage
in youth lost too fast

Crippled

2009-11-17T17:28:00.004+13:00

Just existing
not living at all
trying to feel
but hitting a wall
wanting to be more
regreting my fall
not running
not walking
not moving at all

The Cynic

2009-08-08T22:43:00.004+12:00

My first response is the best
for I look for what is good
But when I start to jest
the cynic exits from the wood
He came from a place so dark
and wished all would be the same
Making fun of views from their hearts
to take away his pain
Bring back that thought for good please
throw the cynics wood in the fire
Help him so that he believes
his good is Your desire

Stained

2009-06-09T05:19:00.000+12:00

hurting today
even in play
to find a way
to hide my pain

i thought i would
just try be good
if only i could
forget again

this way to live
hard to forgive
something's got to give
under such strain

fighting so hard
without regard
my heart I guard
from love so plain

remove this lie
that wants to deny
that Jesus died
to heal this stain

Empty

2009-04-07T16:37:00.004+12:00

Do you know my empty heart, its purpose hard to see
Its emptiness changed by a man, who died upon a tree
This man who lived a perfect life, died because of me
Not just a man, God's Son, my friend, his death has set you free

Free from our faults and sin, which we cannot remove
This Jesus the Lord of all the earth, please let me try and prove
The truth and beauty found in him, will lift you from your gloom
The endless hope of new life found, in an empty tomb

Which Door

2009-02-08T11:46:00.000+13:00

Why create me this way my Lord
Lost in sin and indecision
Weak forever; a paper sword
It pushing until I give in

I come to You eternal King
I don't want to be unsure
This question I have you to bring
The ever difficult - which door?

Easy

2009-02-08T11:41:00.001+13:00

Stupid decision are my forte
Pain and remorse are my friends
Blaming God is my desire
To justify the sin within

Oh, if it was only easy
To have freedom from myself
To look face to face with God
And not feel guilt so thick

Take time with your choices
Let time pass to see
For life is never easy
But it is yours to live

What I've said

2009-01-17T23:38:00.002+13:00

I don't go back where I've been
Or so I've said
To remember the past
What's already been tread
It hurts terribly much
To return again
To a situation in which
You felt such pain

Tight-fisted

2009-01-17T23:34:00.000+13:00

How did I get so angry, so bitter, so twisted
Noting transgressions ever ready to be listed
Not ready to give an inch, my way insisted
Rejecting the need of anyone else, tight-fisted

Your self

2009-01-14T22:07:00.004+13:00

Listen to me and not someone else
I'm more important, I am your self
Why should I listen to all that you say?
Are you perfect? Who made you that way?

I'm the only you you can be, don't question the truth
I'm the loudest voice in your head, there's no other proof
I don't like your 'truth', your weak description of life
In helping your self, you cause nothing but strife

There is no other way, give in like the rest
Try turn back if you like but my way is the best
Have you seen those who resist? How sick they are?
Those in padded-rooms locked, away from harm?

Your threats are empty, your truth emptier still
You cannot hide from me, your desire to kill
I live apart from you and the death you want for me
The life I choose instead - in only Jesus you can see

Native Love

2008-10-22T21:30:00.001+13:00

Born to scorn the native love
Correctly adorned on God above
Yet how forlorn this life can be
Because of this scorn we'll never be free

Chained to a monster we choose to know
We feed our pet and oh does it grow
What was cute small is hideous large
Look see the truth it's not a mirage

Try as you might you can't escape
The monster still chained seals your fate
To get rid of your bonds you must repent
And acknowledge the Son our loving God sent

Un-free

2008-10-06T22:44:00.002+13:00

I want to cry, I'm so unhappy
With everything; mostly myself
I want to run, it's so scary
This place can't be good for my health

I want to hide, I'm so ugly
There's no beauty left in me
I want to die, I don't like it
But I want to be free of me

Paradox

2008-10-06T22:33:00.003+13:00

I'm the product of my environment
All is possible yet nothing is
What I love is also my resentment
What I cherish, there my danger is

// Sorry I haven't written in a while, my poetry was getting too depressing. Decided I should start saying something a bit more constructive.

Shoe-laces

2008-08-16T13:24:00.002+12:00

These shoe-laces keep breaking
Less strong than a feather
With the gruelling task of
Trying to hold it together

What I mean to say

2008-08-16T13:24:00.001+12:00

Let my words be pure and true
All I seek is to honour you
Oh, empty words fade away
Leave only what I mean to say

Belong

2008-08-16T13:14:00.002+12:00

I've made mistakes
But I'm not ashamed
You took my sin
The sting of pain
The past is mine
My thoughts were wrong
My future's yours
Now I belong

Realise

2008-08-16T13:10:00.001+12:00

The realisation hits me
'How long was I gone'
I didn't know I'd left
The path you put me on
Now the only road I'll take
Is the one you've set for me
Forget my selfish ways
I'll listen only to thee

No peace

2008-08-13T19:01:00.001+12:00

When life was unfair, you were there
Distant when I wanted for you
Caressing when I needed

I didn't realise I was so unwell
Unhappy with how things were
Critical of all around

Death and self-loathing were my friends
For there is no peace in this world
None but in you

Selfish bitterness surrounds me always
I wish it would go away
So I could see you

This pain I feel is all I have
Nothing else motivates me
Or blinds me so utterly

Give me some respite from this despair
I don't think I can take it
Not much longer

Not you, someone else

2008-08-13T18:43:00.010+12:00

You tell me you like me, I forget myself
You give me attention, it affects my health
You're so different to me I can't understand
How I want to forget all that I'd planned

Yet it's not you I want but someone else
The person with whom I shared a house
More truly not her but the ideal in my head
The ideal which to me is all but dead

This feeling I believed would always last
Became memory of deep hurt locked in the past
Is it wise to want you in this my life
When all you've caused is pain, my wife

Embrace

2008-08-11T17:50:00.000+12:00

Empty inside, inside the lie
Where I try to hide from thee
Lost below, below your sky
Where rains flood over me

I hate the world, the world within
Where my will fights to live
Against the lie, the lie of pride
That holds water like a sieve

Lift me up, up from below
So I can see your face
Wash me clean, clean from this sin
To feel your warm embrace

Anger

2008-08-11T17:27:00.000+12:00

Anger consumes me
I can't get it out
Resisting the need
To scream and shout
I hate the way
We must exist
Fighting self -
the way of the fist

Leave behind

2008-08-11T17:19:00.000+12:00

Shed a skin
Leave it behind
The pain within
Will only bind
Choose life to hold
A life that's true
Leave behind the old
No longer you

Again

2008-08-10T15:39:00.000+12:00

Again I fall, again I must leave
I jumped ahead before I should
Come the words I can't believe
You hurt me as only you could

I put you high, too high in fact
Above the most important to me
I believed that in you was all I lacked
Now I just want to be free

Lonely here

2008-08-09T10:47:00.000+12:00

It is loneliness that drives
  me to depression
Grief that pushes me
  to the brink of despair
Pain and suffering the
  world that I live in
Ever questioning the impossible -
  why am I here

To my son...

2008-08-07T17:51:00.002+12:00

To my son,

I wish I could say that life is always fun
That you can live solely in the light of the sun
I would be lying to you if I said this was true
Instead let me describe this strange world to you

For plans fail more than they succeed
People hurt each other without a need
Weeds grow in the place of good seed
All stays this way however we plead

You will search for answers in the world around
But find only emptyness in the truth unfound

Success achieved by those who wont cry
Beauty observed with only the eye
Happiness promised to those who will buy
Please, my son, don't believe their lie

Maybe truth will be found in the depth of yourself
A bold search if you want to endanger your health

Saying, No one has felt like this before
I wont do whatever I find a chore
No one has ever deserved this more
Everyone else is only a bore

Dead-ends, emptiness, a slap on the cheek
Where do you look for answer you seek

The answer is made clear to see
How someone outside made you free
A Man who gave His life on a tree
A God died to give life to you and me

Remember this Man in everything you do
Remember also, that I love you

Forgotten you forgot

2008-08-06T13:10:00.000+12:00

Where have I come from
I feel so confused
My past is so hazy
My memory abused

Why value what's gone
It's not that important
Today is of import
I live for this instant

I forget what has gone
I look past what has been
I don't look where I've looked
I don't see what I've seen

When the crap hits the fan
Where can I turn
To the empty mind within
From it can I learn

Can you learn from something
You've all but forgot
Can take from a memory
Wisdom that is not

That's madness I say
And stupid what's more
To believe it's how it is
To ignore the war

I say remember instead
The misforgotten pain
So hopefully you wont
Do it all over again